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Why I wish I never did well in school
I found this here: Why I wish I never did well in school by Marie McKinney-Oates
I have always kicked butt in school. Without even trying. This was not weird in my world. Everyone I hung out with were School Butt Kickers as well. We were like a biker gang. With pocket protectors.
I kicked butt because on the first day of kindergarten someone told me that if I could do well here, if I could slay this dragon we call “formal education”, my reward would be success and happiness for all the days of my life. Someone told me that doing well in school meant making good grades. “Do what the teacher says, live up to their standards, DON’T COLOR OUTSIDE THE LINES,” They said.
I listened. I made A’s. I pleased the teachers. I followed directions. I stood where they told me to stand and wrote what they told me to write. I played the game with the best of them.
I kicked butt. Just like someone told me to do.
The problem is that someone kind of lied. Because happiness and success don’t come from learning the rules and playing by them. Untold riches of the heart come when you learn to follow your passion, not when you learn to follow directions. What I want from life requires that I be risky and courageous. Success requires spunk. School stole my spunk.
That’s right. I have no spunk, and I’d like to blame it on school. I spend way too much time desperately wanting someone, ANYONE to tell me what to do. And instead of following my gut, that creative, life giving, God breathed part of me, I’d really love to just follow directions.
I’d like my spunk back.
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Posted in: Commentary on July 1, 2009 @ 10:47 PM
Tags: Psychology, School
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And this is why you don't pay attention to a 'The Man' after they stop being interesting.
This website is so important so i told ALL of my friends about it!!!
HALLELUJAH.
I went through a very similar experience.
I'd rather be a happy flunk-out than a miserable honor student.
I HATE HOMEWORK! My MOM is a teacher, and even she says too much homework is bad, beCAUSE it takes away time you should spend with your family. Time you should spend having FUN. Being a KID. Many people say "these are the best years of your life." Yeah- wasted with homework!
I can't believe this site, I just found it today, and reading through lots of the articles/blogs. This one really touched me the most. School has never given me anything but busy work, lies and busy work. I am a Junior now at my high school, and I am already thinking about college, and Today I just found one that I love, and I feel like it is exactly what you wished for. (Not necessarily the school, but the fact that it follows my passion) I am a very artsy person, I love music, I animate, I use photoshop for fun and I found a college that will only last one year and has 100% classes I want to take, I won't have to take English or Math on the side, it is hundred percent what I want, because follows my very passion. It's even cheaper and I'll get employed the second I get out. I feel bad for what you went through, because I see my self as the exact opposite of what you did, but like the same person as what you want. In a sense though, I feel like you persuaded me to do exactly what I want to, and for that I thank you.